There's a hole in my soul.....oops I mean head.....

So, I finally got my head cyst taken out today. Its been there for over 5 years, and I never dealt with it. Finally, I got it taken out. It was a very wierd feeling going in, because my cyst and I have lived together for over 5 years, its like we are best friends, so going in was kinda sad, and scary. Luckily my mom came up here to go with me, they number up my scalp around the cyst, and then started to cut my scalp open....while talking to me, I was wide awake. It was freaky feeling. Then I started to feel a lot queezy, so we stopped, I puked, then they made me lay there for a few minutes, and then we continued to remove the cyst. It went alot better, because they finished with me feeling fine. Along the way I knew they were inside my scalp, because I could feel them up there, I could feel them pulling the cyst to the side so they could cut it's "roots" or so they called it. There was alot of those roots. SUcked alot. So once they got him out, they showed him to me, and he was about the size of a cherry, well between a marble and a cherry. At least now I don't have a HUGE bump on the top of my head. But it does hurt a lot, I have never felt pain like this before. These were my first stitches to get, and they had to go so deep , that they put a few stitches about 3/4 of an inch below my scalp, and then alot more on top of my head too. And my parents want me to get the other 3 SMALLER ones taken off before the year is over, but I don't really want to go through that again. EVER....... So, then after it was over, I puked again cause I got up to fast after losing alot of blood, then my MOm and I went to Subway, where people were staring HARDCORE at the pads of Gauze covering 1/4 of my head. This one guy soon as he saw it, goes "So what did you do to your head?, I replied I just had surgery." His reply was "I bet the other guy is worst huh???" Dumb question.....
Anyways, soon as I got home, I headed to work, which i didn't want to do, but I am commited to Aquarena Center, so I went in, didn't have anything to do for a while, so we stood and talked about my head, then I loaded a boat, went and talked to one of my bosses that scheduled me for today, and she was like "I don't know why I scheduled you for today." I was hoping I could go right back home..but no, then we foundlots of stuff to do....yay!!! SO after work, I went home, and napped til CRU, then went to Taco C, and then watched Kicking and Screaming... hilarious movie... now off to bed, but here are some pictures of my bald spot and stitches... night night ya'll



P.S. I HATE SCHOOL, my classes suck, and I am not good at CHem/Physics. oh well. BUT MY SNAKE IS GETTING HUGE. HE WILL BE ABOUT 6 FEET LONG.....YAY!!!!!

The Rain today was the angels' crying

Crying for joy that is. This morning at about 4 am, my Nana passed away. She has had stage 4 brain and lung cancer since the beginning of July. We have been expecting this to happen any time, but it finally happened today, after being in a lot of pain over the past couple of months. When my mom called me to tell me this afternoon, I was at work, and then when she said she had bad news, I knew exactly what it was, and when she said "Austin, its Nana, she passed this morning," this terrible feeling of sadness and happiness set into me at the same time. I am very sad that I will never get to spend time with my Nana anymore, but at the same time very happy that she is no longer in pain, and will get to see Jesus and her husband, and my Paw-Paw up in heaven.
My brother and I had soo many fun times growing up with Nana and Paw-Paw going on herpotolgy meets, going camping out in Big Bend, camping other places, and many other activities. Once my Paw-Paw died in middle school, most of my time spent with my Nana was jsut helping her around the house, going to see movies, going shopping, hanging out, it was alot of fun. Now we will not be able to do any of that again. It saddens me that in high school I was real busy with working and school and whatnot, that I didn't get to spend alot of time with her. It got even worse when I went off to college, since I don't go home that much.
Luckily, due to Hurricane Rita theating to hit the Texas Gulf Coast, my Mom, Nana, and step dad and brother came up to my apartment for the weekend, So I got to see Nana one last time before she passed on. But the trip up here made it even worse on her, she got sick to her stomach on the way up here, but at least I got to see her one more time. She has been really out of it and seeing things, and not all there, but when I got home from work on Wednesday, she was asleep, and my mom woke her up, and she shot the biggest smile I had ever seen on her face, she was soo happy to see me. About a month ago, she talked to my mom very seriously, she said the only thing she minded about dying soon was that she wasn't going to see me graduate from college. That made me feel very happy that she cares so much for me.
So, I am going home this weekend for the funeral, which is going to be in Wharton, where she will be buried next to Paw-Paw. This weekend also happens to be Fall Retreat, so I will not be attending anymore, at least I already had the weekend off, so I won't be an inconvience to anyone at work, even though they wouldn't mind. Also this week, my mom called me to tell me that our dog got hit by and car and died. I had honey since I was in 4th grade, so it was a hard thing to hear that she won't be there this weekend when I go home. But at least I got to play with her alot this weekend when she came because of Hurrican Rita.
Please be praying for my family and I, as we go through this. My mom has been living with Nana taking care of her since August, and trying to work and trying to start her new life with Dennis. So that will give them time together, but he has been so nice to us while this has been happening. He was a blessing through all this, since I am in San Marcos, and my brother has been in Europe since September.
Well, I need to start studying for my bio test tommorow, hopefully I can focus on studying, and not being distracted by things.
Thanks for your prayers.RIP Nana, I love you sooooo much, Glad you aren't in pain anymore. Love you.